Ugh

I hate feeling like the bad guy.
I hate how I'm stuck in this position.
I only told because of your health,
not because you did it.
Now people hate me because i did something.
Why does this happen to me? And situations like this every November for the past 3 years?
I don't understand.
Ugh.

poem by me.

Major venting? Yeah.

"Dear God,
Make me a bird so I can fly far. Far far away from here."

rgdfkjldj:kjk;DAJKFD;LFJAKSD;FJK;: PHEW! I didn't know that this quote could ring so true. I just want to be a bird and get out of Purcellville, even for a few days. My life isn't going all that great so I cant wait to go to Liberty. Be with friends who are so encouraging and older and oddly, WISER.
ugh.
wish life was so easy. have fun, especially at this age, but nope, i get the responsiblities uphold on me. Ever since i was like 2 i had responsibilites because i care about people too much. I used to be my brother's right hand in everything so he wouldn't freak out by doing it alone. I'm not sure why God is making me go through the things that I do, but surely enough it might just be what i need. Cause every year at this time of year....SOMETHING GOES AWRY.
its not january, or feb or august or december. Its this october/november thing. every freakin year.

A Good 'Ol Friday night

So I'm staying up late writing this post because other than the fact that I have nothing to do...wait. I have no reason to write this.
I just feel like this year is just going to be terrible and I just want to get outta here.
Everything that happens, especially bad, I remind myself: Just 1.more.year. Then i'm out. I just want to get on with my life and yeah I guess I should become a senior earlier, but i'd miss all my true friends and not have the senior year thats worth the fun.
I don't try to be all complainy about me wanting to leave but I find myself envisioning going to college, having a good career helping someone, and moving on. I know I should enjoy my high school years because you have like zero responsiblity and you'll never get to relive those years, but heck, I have alot of responsibilities and work is just a measely cherry to the top of it.
Work is becoming such a burden because its not like I don't enjoy it, but its like everytime I actually plan to do something, I get scheduled to work. I'd rather work Sundays or even weeknights than that lovely day called Saturday. They schedule me to work there. every.freakin.saturday. I HAVE A LIFE- im a teenager but yet oh hey...im the only teenager actually working on saturday. yeah i know sometimes garrett and taylor and even the amanda's and ashley work it, but i get the dreaded 6 1/2 hrs. They get like 5 hrs or even 4. Yeah its good to have money but i feel like i just spend it wayyy to much.
I dont know what to do.
Maybe go to a shopaholic's anonyomous meeting.

I've vented my measurement for the past week or so, so I'm headed off to bed before I have my best friend yell at me for typing so loudly, even though she does...hahaha

GOODNIGHT! (:


song(s?) of the night:
1. Stronger by Mandisa- favorite part of the song "When the waves are taking you under, hold on just a little be stronger, He knows that this will make you STRONGER." (no link...im too lazy)
2. Clueless by Rocky loves Emily- I dont know why, but i love just jamming to this song.
3. THE GLEE PROJECT- Under Pressure/ Ice Ice Baby- 2 awesome songs mashed up with 6 awesome singers. And one is IRISH. <3
heres the link:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rq908dPC-zU
andd lucky number 4: Leaving you Lonely- Eric Dill. I like this song! CHECK IT OUTT!

peace out!
and yes, i just said that.

The Rescue- Tyler Ward

"Sometimes we all just need to be recued." - written
"I’m running backwards in the rain
Got my hand up for a taxi
I finally got her name
Then we slipped into the backseat

I whisper, “are you okay?”
she nods her head with feeling
I could see the pain
and I can not explain how

[Chorus]
I am captivated by
the way you look tonight
and I’ve seen what you’ve been into

So I will never cross the line
I won’t tell you any lies
I was sent here for the rescue

[Verse 2]
She couldn’t see past his stare, when desire took them over
With a quick and simple prayer she cried, “God bring this to closure”
“I can not take this anymore and I know that what I’m waiting for
is so much bigger, so much better, get me out, please deliver”

So I’m here breaking down your door
Calling out your name
I want to take away the pain
You know I’m here like I was before
Screaming out your name
Waiting for the change

[Chorus]
I am captivated by
The way you look tonight
And I’ve seen what you’ve been into

So I will never cross the line
I won’t tell you any lies
I was sent here for the rescue

[Choir]
Leave your burden, weak and weary, I will lead you home
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound

School blues.

I'm sick.Not of an infection (well right now i am)
Not because of people.
But.
Because of SCHOOL.

I just can't deal with the overload on homework, figuring out what to do on the weekend, (balancing fun and homework) , and oh yeah, i work.
I feel like everything just goes completely wrong. I haven't had a week that has been good. that's a whole month. And I'm the person who just goes even though I'm tired. People are wondering how I survive on so little hours is that i DONT. but I just have to get through the day til its time to go to sleep. Even then I have to stay up doing homework or I have to crunch it in during homeroom, and sometimes I can't deal with it.
I also found out I have a huge Vitamin D deficiency so I have to eat other foods, and they are not helping with my stomach.
People call me lazy but I usually have to do stuff like watch my brother, which involves playing with the poor kid, I have homework and then do chores around the house cause I'm never home on the weekends and I have to make it up.

Also,
I went to Awakening Musical Fest this year and it was awesome! I went with my friends Ashley, Kayla, and Stephanie and we had a great time jamming to people such as Hawk Nelson, Family Force 5, and tobyMac! <- we also heard Jamie Grace sing her song "Hold Me".
That song is so my life.
LYRICS: I’ve had a long day I just wanna relax/Don’t have time for my friends, no time to chit-chat Problems at my job, wonderin’ what to do I know I should be working but I’m thinking of You and Just when I feel this crazy world is gonna bring me down That’s when Your smile comes around Ooh, I love the way You hold me By my side You’ll always be.

I feel like people don't understand that Christians AREN'T PERFECT. We screw up, mess up, slip up, just like EVERYONE IN THE WORLD. The only thing that is different is that we, have a God and His Son to "hold us" while we are feeling this way. One way to put it is that God holds on to your arm, and even if you mess up, he's still going to be holding you.
You may think what you are doing now is so terrible and you can't go back, or even what would people think? "Christians are "supposed" to be GOOD KIDS. PERFECT KIDS." HA. i laugh at that. Christians don't strive to be PERFECT. but we strive to be what God wants us to be.

I challenge you as a reader to figure out what God wants you to be. And how you find that out is to read HIS book, the Bible. You'll figure out that even the most prestigious people in the Bible screwed up. Like Paul.
Paul was originally named Saul. He was hated by everyone. He killed alot of people. He's the poster child of what not to do.  And yet God had a plan for him.
Crazy. No other words to describe it.

songs to digest :)
1. Hold Me by Jamie Grace. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISgr8SgCYbY
2. Your Love is A Mystery by Hawk Nelson. (this song is how even when we screw up, God still loves us.) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4eRLiTvKps
3. Wobble by Family Force 5. (who says you can't have fun?) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQEH_n7Anx8
4. Broken by Lindsey Haun. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PoWQunKQElE
&& 5. Pennybags by Tyler Ward. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXdo6YUXWbI&feature=results_video&playnext=1&list=PL2E934138A75C94F6

<3 casey.

New York Snapshots

 Morgan Freedman. Waddup.
















Madame President in the future? YEAH!

My best friend being a crazy taxi driver...she even drives with the doors open :D

Lady Liberty's head is a little small dont-cha think?










Time Square baby! :)

 What a classic NYC photo....

August.

Sigh.
I've been gone all this summer practically and school seems like its almost here...why? BECAUSE ITS LESS THAN 2 WEEKS AWAY!
This is maddness.
Just came back from New York City with Ashley (we stayed at my Aunt and Uncle's house), and it was a BLAST. Though, I do want to come during Christmas time to see all the Christmas-y things like the ice skating rink, sleigh rides through the snow falling, etc, etc.
I recently forgot about my blog and I saw my friend's post about some jerk.
I want to her read this: FORGET HIM!!!!! the kid is a no-good-son-of-a-gun-bum-who-just-got-a-girlfriend.
I've known this kid for quite some time, and all he's done to her is what a guy shouldn't do! he's late, doesn't text her back, makes up lame excuses, and she has EVERY RIGHT TO BE PISSED AT HIM. and yet he just got a girlfriend. blahhhhh (sorry girl, i had to say it)
He just makes me mad of what I hear about him! AFRJDKLFJKDLFJ: = my frustration towards him.

Anyways,
I gotta do some chores. (even though i just got back today) BLAH.

some jams to jam...or dance...if you CAN dance...unlike me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ceIxXz46_uI <- Sweet Sweet Summertime by Aria Wallace (Mandy from iCarly)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WJbFqe09IA&list=FL1QLIA7Zx-_c&index=11 <- Just Friends by Shane Harper
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaasByt5QoA <- On My Mind by Cody Simpson ft. Tyler Ward (acoustic-ish)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wxA0j7N0SWo <- This Girl by Laza (from Step Up 3D)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSYNk0WKcsk <- Falling (in love with you) by Tyler Ward
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3M6ZvNmwGxs <- About a Girl by The Academy Is...

&&
STEPHEN JERZAK'S VIDEO!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulqqXTPEpYs <- Party Like You're Single


enjoy!
pics from NYC coming soon :)
<3
casey

July, what a wonderful month

This past week I went to The Master's Inn, in Virginia, and its a completely life-changing camp. The things you do there reflect what you should do EVERY DAY, like doing morning devotionals (devos), praying before eating, and glorifying God through whatever actions you do.
God spoke to me and SO MANY people and specifically for me, its how i act.










Another thing that happened, was that I went to Eagle Butte, South Dakota and helped out a VBS for the Lakota kids. Going there makes you realize that even though you thought you had it bad, they have it 10 times worse. 
80 % of the kids I met have been abused in some way shape or form. The kids I had were 7 years old. You could see the love and attention these kids NEED and STRIVE for. I went the first day to pick up kids for a block party and one gets on the bus and sits on my lap. I've never seen the kid before, but as soon as she saw the van that had the church's name on it, she felt SAFE. Most kids there never feel that and that's why its such a bad place. I met so many drunks outside the gates of the church, and whats even sadder is driving through the town seeing these places where these adorable, lovable kids live and you wonder how they do it. How can this 5 year old or 9 year old live in a house with 15 people and have no drawers? One girl spent the night at a very good friend's house (a couple who are pretty rich and live 45 away) and she slept in the dark for the FIRST TIME. The poor girl is 8 or 10! She's so used to cockroaches while she sleeps that it freaked her out to sleep in the dark.
But these kids need God in their life and they will end up as the stereotypical Indian: drunk.
The Lakota Sioux need Satan out of their town, and I pray that Little white church will impact them more than anything.

Also, right now I'm at the beach, ooh man I got a TERRIBLE burn, (everyone says its because I'm a ginger...) BOO THEM! I love the saltwater breeze, sand, and sound of waves crashing! Its the good life.
God has blessed me soo much its unbelievable! 

thats my update.
loves


<3

Sorry this is late...

HAPPY 4th! 
GOD BLESS AMERICA!!
FREEDOM ISN'T FREE.....
REMEMBERING SOLDIERS....
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY! (:

What If?

""What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if?" Quote from Letters to Juliet. But it rings so true! What is the color of your hair? If only I had a car...
But...
What if I said hello?
What if I sat next to them?
What if I texted them saying how I feel?


They are haunting.
You never know what would of happened. So next time, do it and look back saying, Wow. I know what the what if is. Today I read a story where a guy wondered if he and this girl would go far. So he got the guts to ask her out. Turns out she was dating someone else. BUT he walked away finally not wondering what if?....


So....my advice? Do atleast 1 thing everyday that you would be scared to do. Then you don't have to look back and say what if?

&& I have a new obsession! Well, I wouldn't put it that harshly, but ever since watching Sabrina The Teenage Witch (the movie), The Proposal, and School of Life, I am amazed of what RYAN REYNOLDS can do with a script. And since he's such a funny guy, I'm "obsessed" with him! Hahahaha

SUMMER!

Ahh! School's out! I'm completely done with all I had to learn. UGH.


Now SUMMER 2011 is rolling in and I'm pretty stoked about this summer! I'll be going to South Dakota to help out an Native American tribe, then a summer camp, then the beach with my best friend and IM GOING TO NEW YORK BABY!
I've never been in the city or big apple, as people may say and I'm SOO EXCITED! I'm doing it for a summer assignment but hey I'm alright with that! 
Its really late now and I need to go to bed so I'll probably post later tomorrow! I'm hoping I can go play tennis! AHH IM EXCITED!


SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER! 




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3Q-LQQW6pA <- SUMMER NIGHTS by RASCAL FLATTS!

Beautiful people/my week

What is being "beautiful" mean? Well people says things like, looking great, in anyway possible or in an unique way. 
Here's dictionary.com's version: 
Beautiful:

1.

having beauty;  having qualities that give great pleasure or satisfaction to see, hear, think about, etc.; delighting the senses or mind: a beautiful dress; a beautiful speech.

2.

excellent of its kind: a beautiful putt on the seventh hole;The chef served us a beautiful roast of beef.

3.

wonderful; very pleasing or satisfying.

Good to know eh? Well I feel terrible for all those girls who feel ugly, just because of society's look on beauty. BUT in terms of this, ANY GIRL ANYWHERE IS! Society's opinion can go die in a hole. Haha 

No girl should feel so worthless of her self image to resort to such horrible things, such as eating disorders, hurting, and just going into a depression. I felt compelled to write this because I hear on the monitor that we have in our house about these kids out here who either "attempted suicide" or "ODed" about EVERY DAY. Thats no way to live.
Thats why I want to help kids, and especially those in social care. Social workers get a bad reputation for taking kids away from their parents, who cannot help them. But as one I want to go to the extra mile to help the parents get back on their feet and get their kids back. Nothing is more tragic than loosing your own baby girl or baby boy just because of some stupid mistakes.


Also, to keep you updated in my life, I'm working (which feels like all the time) but some people need to chill when they're at the checkout! I never realized but some just need to do the self checkouts so that innocent cashiers like me don't get spoken to in such a harsh way. Its not my fault the watermelon rolled. Its not my fault I have to ask you about donating. And one thing is donating a dollar for a purchase isn't so bad, unless you've done it like 5 times, then thats okay. But seriously people, KIDS NEED HELP OUT THERE. and you guys in your fancy cars and houses and high dollar jobs cant just donate a stickin dollar? What has America come to? 
RFDKLFJDKLF.
Schools almost out. THANK THE LORD!

This is the part of my blog where i put a great song up! well here it is! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzlNFcT2aOE <--click it (: & i got another one!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVeToMZ3xdA <--awesomeness.




<3 
Casey
ps. the picture is one i took to hold a BABY DRAGON! i want one!! 
what about you?!

Happy Never After!

Today has just been a chill day, so I thought I'd share the main song of my day! ITS MY JAM!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCACy8zjKHs <-click it! (:

have a great day! 

~casey

20 random things

I have nothing that awesome to say so I'll just write 20 random things about me.

1. My name is Casey
2. My favorite color is orange
3. I play volleyball
4. I love mexican food- tacos=YUMMY
5. I have 3 siblings, 1 little sister, and 1 older and 1 younger brother (my lil bro is the pic ->>
6. I have redhair- so does 4/6 people in my family
7. Because I have red hair, I do not tan (sad but true)
8. I have a dimple on the left side near my mouth
9. I LOVE ICE. i know weird...
10. I'm left handed
11. I'm still in high school
12. I really want to dance right now
13. Today I biked 10 miles- CHAMPION
14. My favorite television show is Off the Map ( a doctor type show in that takes place in South America)
15. I want to go bungee jumping off a bridge in Europe <- top thing on my bucket list
16. I love Hawk Nelson, they are my favorite band
17. I have a cat- shes a long-haired something...i dont remember what breed...
18. I love yorkies!
19. I've never understood why the chicken crossed the road...
20. I can't wait for summer- long days, warm nights, bonfires, swimming, sleeping in, sand, AWESOMENESS.

SO THATS ABOUT IT! (:
comment if you have anything AWESOME about you that you would like to share! Maybe you own an albino ferret? I saw one today...random i know....

Hello World

"Sometimes I forget what living's for, And i hear my life through my front door, 
and i breath it in, 
oh I'm home again 
I See my wife, little boy, little girl, Hello World 

Hello World 
All the empty disappears 
I remember why I'm here 
Just surrender and believe 
I fall down on my knees 
Oh Hello World, Hello World, Hello World"


Sometimes you wonder why you're here. Like why do i have to put up with this BS/ Fake People/Annoying people/Life, but you gotta remember, the little things are important. God put you here on earth to where you are for a reason. Just today I got home and saw my little brother and I walked near him and he gave me a HUGE hug! That was so sweet because when he gets older, he won't be my 'little bro' anymore. He'll have to go through the things I've faced, maybe more, maybe the same, I don't know. Same goes for my little sister. She's just learning about these things that she's going to have to face especially during the awkward ages, MIDDLE SCHOOL. Now middle school wasn't all that bad for me, except for 6th grade. Man that transition with new people, new teacher, oh and the body changes? yeah...not fun either. 


So tomorrow morning, or next time you wake up, have a gleaming face, and say HELLO WORLD, IM READY TO TAKE WHATCHA BRING ME.


Keep your head up high- people will kill to see you fall- Random Quote (:


loves,
casey






Hello world by lady antebellum<-- CHECK IT OUTT! ( i actually teared up when the girl came out of the car)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=al2DFQEZl4M

Momma's Day!

Today was one of the greatest days out of the history of the world.
First off, I got up on time and gave my momma her present: an ipod shuffle and SHE FLIPPED OUT! she was like "OMGOSH!" and did a little happy dance!!! (:
We also got her a necklace with our birthstones and a wii and a wiifit PLUS! <--more games than the other wiifit!
One bummer is that i had to mow, but since Erin and I split half the front yard, we got done in no time!
I made dinner tonight, in which my brother thought it was STORE BOUGHT. now in the eyes of my brother, that would be a compliment....so he liked it!
This week is going to suck, I already know it, and its not even monday yet! :(
AP Test this week. If i fail, imma cry. Cause i took this class to raise my gpa and get it out of geneds or whatever for college. So i gotta study every freakin day til thursday where i sit in the gym for 3 HOURS making sure my mind doesn't explode.
Oh and i have paperwork for bloom also. YAY.
funny how things all happen at the same time, and its like urghhhh, why me?
Lord knows what's gonna happen, but i ain't that thrilled for this week.
Dear, Monday the 16, it is NOT a pleasure to be starting this death week.

Happy mother's day to all mommas!

(:

School

Since this weather is becoming warm, school just seems to drag on and ON!
Not to mention AP exams coming up and SOL's!
I hate the fourth quarter of the year, its the time where teachers are like crap they-don't-know-anything-so-lets-give-them-alot-to-do-and-kill-them!

Can I just skip the last years of my high school life? hahaha i wish.

i just gotta FIND THE STRENGTH TO PREVAIL!!

YAY ME?

OH AND I GOT A JOB!! :))))
GOD IS AWESOME!

~casey!

(no_subject)

Dear God, 

WHY ME?

why? i just don't know why.

-casey

Bring on the Rain.

Rain.

You make me so sleepy,

even when I'm not,

I try to stay awake,

and jump when someone knocks.

People may like you, especially in spring,

but i still hate it, 

i hate it all the same.

These days i feel like chilling in sweats, 

procrastinating the day away.

Rain. I love the aftermath,

the hot asphalt, the rainbow.

What a promise it shows.

Rain. Always a reminder.

PS! 

I love this song, it has such a great message, and it saved someone from killing themselves. Its called "The Rescue" by being rescued by GUILT, SELF-DOUBT, FEAR, BAD MEMORIES, and just to be RESCUED. If you have ever dealt with these, I advise you to listen to it. You wont regret it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ff2lz6hnQRA&feature=related <- CLICKK (:

PPS. I almost sent the picture as a video for this song, but i decided not to. :(

Running.

As many people would think this is crazy, but I LOVE running! I just love the wind through your hair, the intensity going up hills, and especially running to crazy music for inspiration!
Not many people can say they love it, but I surely do. Now, I must say I do not run fast, nor with intentions of being faster than people. When I run, I run for myself.
Thats one of the things of what I love about God, how he picks the most random people to be bless with the likeness for certain things or have big places in this world. But not everyone can do what other people do. No one is going to look the same, feel the same emotions, and want to do the same things. That's what makes us special. 
You may not see why or what God has specifically thrusted upon you, but you'll see. You may not be like other people, heck, you DON'T want to be like other people, you should want to be different.
Shine your light on! Cause no one else is like you.
Like how I love running and say what I say, it makes me ME. Only God has the power to make me who I am.
So try to love yourself the rest of this week, and remember, God make you who you are. LOVE IT (:

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be"(Psalm 139:13-16).

peace,
casey

Love this song! Never Change by Chase Coy; so if your ever feel gloomy, listen (:
"I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change"


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGIpLpTWDs8 <--CLICK IT! *WARNING* SLOW MUSIC! 

Old Blog #2 JANUARY!!

1.12.11

Today we had a 2 hour delay. What a marvelous delay it was! Sleeping till 9 was very blissful!  I felt like I did nothing productive today but oh well! I finished Karen Kingsbury’s book, The Red Gloves Collection. Christmastime this year I want to go to a senior center and figure out which ones have little or no visits and learn something from them.  That’s my goal next year as a junior and hope to do that! Well I must go to sleep because I have a history and math test tomorrow. YAY! Last day of interior design also L That was the best class and teacher ever. But I’m sure we (Ashley and I) are going to say hi to Mrs. Taylor A LOT! HAHAHA J

1.17.11

Snow days are lazy days. You get up late, thank the Lord that you have another day to do your homework and watch TV all day. Well atleast that’s what I did. I watched Nanny McPhee returns, and The Country Bears, then went upstairs to play Just Dance 2 then came back down to watch some random TV shows. I studied last night for my driver’s ed test and I think I’ll do well, with the Lord’s help. Tomorrow is going to be super easy due to driver’s ed then study hall. (where I will start my English essay…) I’m hoping we get regular school just because I want exams over with because I’m going to snow camp in PA this weekend and then will come back to take my interior design and biology exams. Barf! Well now I need to go to sleep, waking up at 7:10 won’t be the easiest since I slept till 10. Gave myself a heart attack almost when I looked at the clock because if it was a 2 hour delay, I would have to leave my house at 10:15, no way would I be ready in time.

Goodnight <3

~Casey

3.8.11

WOW. I haven’t blogged in what seems like forever! Big news since January: My friend has accepted God and Jesus back into her life,(PRAISE THE LORD) & I’m GETTING MY LICENSE IN 9 DAYS, I got a haircut, and am now in gourmet foods! Hahaha not the biggest news but pretty new!

-Caseyyy

Old Blog #1

So I was looking though my documents and found some oldish blog kind of things on a microsoft word document! Haha!

1.1.11

Today I found out that airports are one of the most exciting and saddest places. If you are meeting someone who flew in after not seeing them for a long time, it’s exciting. But, if you are saying your goodbyes and not certain when you’ll see the person again, it’s bittersweet. On Christmas, my best friend’s parent flew in my best friend Caroline Hinkle from Illinois to Virginia. I hadn’t seen her in 3 years and it was a complete shock. After spending a week with her and Ashley Tucker, we had to say our goodbyes today, at the airport. We rang in the New Year with her and Ashley and Janey White and Mandy Wine. It was a blast but the inevitable thing was that she was leaving and I don’t know when I’ll see her again. Hopefully in the summer, but I don’t know. I’m writing this to start blogging about my day so when I look back on it, I’ll remember the most of the year 2011. It’s 12:20 so technically it’s the 2^nd but I’m writing it as of the 1^st. 

Toodles,

Casey 

HAPPY EASTER/ Biology...Oh how I loathe you.

Well hello there! Happy Easter! Christ has Risen! 


There are some things you just absolutely ADORE, some things you are IFFY on, and some things you LOATHE.
Biology fits in the last category for me.
I hate it.
I don't mind the whole figuring out how cells make more cells and how we make energy, but I seriously could live without knowing it. When I'm 25, I highly doubt I'll even know what the heck a mitochondria is, or even to remember how the heck you spell it.
Right now I'm "learning" evolution. Since I could grasp the concept, I know what it is. How over time things change and evolve due to changes around the species (and how their adaptations alter the functions of parts), but its not talking about a matter of a couple thousand years, its talking about million of years. I see how the researchers (in a science and secular viewpoint) would arrive to that conclusion. But seeing that I don't believe in that, I feel like its a waste of time knowing this because I won't apply most of the terms I'm learning for my benefit except for adaptation and some others. But thats just my little soap box (:
Overall, I feel like biology is a waste of time, I wish you can just skip it like you can do in earth science if you don't really like learning about rocks. (THATS GNEISS<--thanks to Mr. Sheehan, the ONLY teacher who would make rocks a fun subject)


I SHOULD be writing a conclusion on Darwin's findings about birds. Blah. I'm sorry, but I do not like birds. They fall in the loathe category as well. Birds to me are either: 1. FREAKY. 2. CUTE or 3. MEAN.
Freaky by the means of a bird swooping towards you 
Cute by the colors and how chubby those feathery things are
& Mean by the way they like to POOP on you.. NOT THE BEST THING IN THE WORLD.
So I'm just venting my feelings towards biology and can't wait for chemistry next year, where I use math. I'll admit it, I'm a math geek. BOY DO I LOVE NUMBERS. (thats a turn on for boys...) I'm just not so keen on the whole science ordeal, especially from 8th grade on....


All and All,
I LOATHE BIOLOGY. (and my biology teacher...don't get me started on her....)


peace.
~casey


ps. i picked the color purple because i also do not like it. Lame, I know. :)

Chasing Pavements/ Get Back Up

So my friend is sorta in love with Adele's songs, so I looked back to the song that I first heard Adele sang. 

Its called Chasing Pavements. 

One part of the song goes, "Should I give up? Or should I just keep chasing pavements/even it it leads no where?" <- BY FAR THE BEST SONG OUT THERE, for your information

Any who, even though this is more or less a rhetorical question, she shouldn't give up. No one should even give up, especially if you don't even know the results, you just gotta keep going through them.

If you fall down, you should just get back up. Its that simple. But hey, i'm not saying its going to be easy.

I watched a movie yesterday called "What if..." and the angel that God sent to this man who was going to be a pastor, then left his girlfriend and everything for a chance in the big time, and with that made the man look at his life if he hadn't left his girlfriend, family, and God for what he had, which was essentially nothing.

The man had so many questions and difficultly figuring out what to do. The angel simply replied, "Just get back up." Of course you'd be like, Pfft, it's impossible, or no. but afterwards, the angel said, Im not saying that its easy, just simple.

If you're anything like me, you think simple and easy go hand in hand. Well apparently they do not. Simple is putting a shirt on, well it can be difficult if you don't: a.) know what on earth you are going to wear, or b.) if its even clean or dirty, but the act of putting a shirt on is fairly easy. 

Whether you're putting on a shirt, or having difficulty trying not to give up, remember, especially that Easter is only a few days away, that God has and will never give up on you. You may not see what he's doing in your life, but oh when you see it, it'll be amazing. 

peace,

casey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08DjMT-qR9g <- Chasing Pavements-Adele

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAA0ASlh1HU <- Get Back Up- tobyMac

Life.

FDJKLTA;SHFKATJK;DEFJKASL;THSDLJFKSDFJKS.
^ this is the times when i feel like life is just plain annoying.

Then again I have those days where I'm like, "Life is good".

Yeah....today is the first example...

Today started off good, I woke up at a decent time, got ready for school, and had a good half of the day. But then lunch came. My throat started itching. Now it just burns. I just got a headache, it was a rainy day, and I have homework to still be touched.
One thing good came out of this day: I gotta hang with my friend Kayla, and where I found out something shocking but adorable! Oh and she whooped my butt in Just Dance 2. No big deal.

Days like these I just want to crawl in a ball with covers, have a peaceful movie or sleepy kind of songs, and fall asleep. Everyone has that, I just happen to have one today. Yay me... I'm also freezing while I'm typing on my warm laptop, I wouldn't even know...

I don't have anything else to say, this is one of those day to day blogs saying whats going on in your life.
I feel like this blog should be a combo of this, offering advice to those who need it, and if they want to talk about there day when no one seems to care, I'll listen.

thanks for reading this pretty boring blog post today, i commend you.
~casey

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I've never been such an emotional person, when I fall down, I just get back up, clean the wound and let it heal. I don't usually hug people (never liked that even when I was little) and I almost never cry. There's only a few accounts where I have actually bawled my eyes out.
1. My grandfather dying. <- he had Alzheimer and didn't remember me, also the LAST day I saw him, he said something to ME. but I didn't understand it. To this day I always think about him on that hospital bed saying that.
2. My best friend and her issues. Now, I understand WHY people want to do the stuff she did, but I just couldn't believe it was happening, I don't blame her for doing it only because its not her fault that she did it, its Satan's freaking voice leading up to the things. And I couldn't control it, if you didn't know, I like some control.
3. My parents as a child. I'd hear them all the time yelling and arguing and I just wanted it to stop. Sometimes my dad said he would leave us, and just pack his bags, and I remembering writing down that he was always angry, no matter who bugged him. Thankfully, he has gotten better, no more arguing to my mom (except what to do about some things,) and not blaming us for everything. 
4. Getting rid of my first cat, Penny. I loved that cat to death. But the thing was that she was practically anorexic and couldn't survive with us. My parents told me that I had to put her in the shelter to get better. I screamed and went upstairs in my room and threw EVERYTHING off my desk (i had one connected to my bunk bed) and just got a blanket and cried my eyes out. I think I didn't get out of my room for a couple hours.  




Other than that, I don't usually cry. Until I read someone else's blog. I feel like I should just snatch up my friend and get her out of the environment people like her don't deserve to have that dumped on their plate especially as a teen. And again, I feel like a fairy godmother should come pick her up on the way to the ball and have a magical life, not the life she was given with. Then again, living up that way makes you stronger, a whole lot stronger. 


God is the rock to go to when you're sad, back then (other than my friend) I didn't really get the concept of God. Its this supernatural dude in the sky who created everything and had a son on Earth? I didn't get the big picture how he is THE one to go to in time of need. After him, you ask Godly friends, and then your parents, if they are understanding. Just remember, God is always with you.


love,
caseyy

Friendships.

Friendships. or Freakships in the ones of mine,

they are foundation of having someone to talk to and spill out what you are feeling without your parents. Friends can be brother, sister, cousins, people you meet in school, people you meet everywhere, you get my drift.

The hardest thing about friendships is that you have to keep it going. You can't just drop the person off the face of your world just because of some things.

But if you feel like your world is crashing, and all your friends seem distant, not really friends anymore, then I have news for you!

I know its a cliché, but I'm with you no matter what you're facing. And if its self-harm, (from cutting to eating disorders to drug abuse) or anything else, I'll be your friend. Nothing else to it.

Proverbs 12:26, "The godly give good advice to their friends; the wicked lead them astray" (NLT)

This basically says that hang out with good godly friends,  don't let friends pressure you into bad things, especially if they are "cool" or "everyone is doing it" Pftt. SOMEONE isn't doing it, so that isn't even plausible.


This came up into my mind today because about less than a year ago, one of my other best friends stopped talking to me and my other best friend. Nothing. I didn't even know she was alive unless she posted on facebook (which is quite sad when I have her cell phone number!) She tried to talk to me and my best friend, but it was just awkward. Then she went to another school, so we never saw her. But the real thing is that she got mad at me and my friend wanting to hang out with her! She wanted to hang out with HER family, ALL the time. I'm not saying that hanging out with your family is necessarily a bad thing, but we had to schedule a time, then she blew us off. Just recently she talked to us and wants to hang out. Funny how things completely do a 180...and I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty mixed feelings about this, cause I do consider her as a friend, but ever since those times we didn't talk, however, we do get to catch up on the year! (:

but ANYWHO,
Geez, I get off topic super easily.


So friendship.
Its like being on a ship, and you have to stick together through those storms and major winds that may come your way, and one friend that will always be there is God. You can talk to him like you're talking to your best friend, even if its about something giddy and not that important. He WANTS to hear you. He WANTS to answers your problems and questions, just like he answers my prayers.
One prayer I will never forget was when I was 6. I had my first wart, I WAS FREAKING OUT, (no big deal) and I wanted that dang thing off of me! My mom told me to pray to God to get rid of that wart, so I did, and miraculously, the next day, IT WAS GONE! <-- Its amazing how God answers prayers.
And if you say, "but I've prayed and never got an answer", God answers in 3 ways: Yes. No. Wait.


So if there are problems with friends, or just yourself, God can give you strength to work these out, and if you don't see your answer as immediate as my wart, just wait, He will never ignore you.


loves,
casey

Perfect.

Ah, what a word. Perfect.
The word "perfect" implies without flaws, or having the perfect life: having a great job & pay, great spouse, awesome kids, healthy family, gorgeous looks, but everyone knows you can't have ALL of that and them some.
If you have ever listened to the song "Perfect" by Simple Plan, or if you haven't (you should), you hear the kid's saying to his dad,

"I'm never gonna be good enough for youI can't pretend thatI'm alrightAnd you can't change me'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts foreverI'm sorry I can't be perfect"

Or if you have heard P!nk's new song, F**kin` Perfect,  she wants to make sure, that NO ONE out there feels less that perfect, because they are perfect to her.


These songs are just a few of how people aren't perfect, but there is one person who is. Jesus Christ.
He was like us, human, being tempted to do what others said, but he resisted and followed the plans of his Father, God.
God cares about you, and despite your flaws, he loves you, more than anyone can. During hard times you kinda feel hopeless, depressed, and especially if you feel you cannot change what is going on.
This is what I felt during my friend's issues, not that I didn't love her, I mean shes my BEST FRIEND, but the feeling of hopelessness overwhelmed me, and sometimes I just wanted to run away and forget all that is happening. Too bad I couldn't, because she is my best friend, and best friends just don't 'bug' out on best friends. And I'm so happy to say that my friend came back to her faith, and she's like a whole new person!


Okay back to the word PERFECT.

Romans 3:23: "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (ESV)

This verse means that everyone, even the people who are the sweetest, most caring people out there fall short of God's glory, but with God's mercy you have a chance to live with him for eternity.
You may not be perfect, but in God's eyes you are.
Thats finding strength when you feel less than perfect, God sees you as perfectly made, and nothing can change that.


loves,
casey